Saturday, June 4, 2011

Sad

I'm a little sad today. I guess its a new stage I've hit in our "path to Peru". It hit me last night while I was doing the dishes and poor Dan walked into the room a little while later to find me a blubbering sentimental mess. Here is what I'm sad about, in no particular order.

I'm sad that our time here is coming to an end. I'm sad to move so far from my family, and from Dan's family (which is also my family.) I'm sad that I won't get to be much of a part of my nephews' lives (or any future nieces). Sad that this is our last summer here (I love summer here.) That now that (I think) I have figured out how to grow some things in my little garden here that I won't get another try. As happy as I am that Dan's parents will get to live in and enjoy their wonderful house, I'm sad that we have to leave it because its been the perfect place to live. I'm sad that we're at the stage where we are starting to see and hear about events planned that we won't be here to do. I'm sad to leave our church and the friends that we've made here. And that Lucy and Lydia will have to say goodbye to their little friends. They are going to miss them. I'm sad that there is not enough time to do all the things around here that I still want to do.

Then there's the girls. I was watching some videos on my phone last night of them from the end of last summer-and I was surprised at how little they were! How do they do that, grow without me even noticing! Part of my sadness over our moving to Peru is hard to explain, but its like it launches the girls into their next phase of life. When we left the DR to move to the States, Lydia was about the age that Davy is now. You might not get this, but when we were in the DR, Lydia was a baby, but then when we got to the States, she had morphed into a full blown kid. Being in a new place with new routines and a bed instead of a crib, etc. She just didn't seem like a baby anymore. So I know that along with saying goodbye to our friends, family and life here, I'm also saying goodbye to Davy's baby-ness. And the older girls will be launched into new phases too. That's not a bad thing of course, its a good thing and its life, but it makes a sentimental mommy a little sad. :)



So that's where I'm at. Sad is not a bad place to be I don't think, its part of the process and I am absolutely thankful that I have these things to be sad about. That it makes me sad to leave them just means that they were good. What blessings God has given!

Katie

P.S. I am adding a couple new pages to the blog if you want to check them out. Also, beginning Monday I am starting a new "series" of  "Meet the Andersons" posts, where I'll introduce you to each of us so you will know just a little bit more about who we are. I'm starting with Davy Sue and will try to post one every couple of days.

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